心情很乱

这阵子，我的心情起起落落..比起在二月，今天我的心情舒缓下来了，是时候放空脑袋，重新思考了。今早收到简讯，莹说一起去吃东西，早上1030，我就像条大死虫，不舍得怕起床来了。最近我的睡眠起床时间已颠倒极点了，不正常！梳洗和准备完后，就等他放学来载我了。
怎知道，肚子突然饿了咧，等着等着又想去见周公了，哈哈。。下午一点多，车到了，我的早餐终于到了:)之后伦也有去耶,蛮久没和他一起同桌了.嘻嘻..我们去了咖啡馆..有好吃的面,甜到爆的ice-cream,还有脆脆爽口的鲍鱼菇..哇..虽然简单的"早餐",但我满足..^^我说我要放弃学业去做工,我说我要半工读,我说我要换课程..他们和我聊了很多很多..他们试着帮忙我,分担我状况,开导我,解释给我听..我是感动,我明白他们的用心..真的...我懂得.我会认真.谢谢....谢谢...
回到家,满脑都装着话语,我好像有点失了魂,反应有点迟钝..原因只有一个,"想!想!想!",结果跑去追看珠光宝气..直到夜晚时,莹有打电话给我,和他聊了蛮久,不知怎么说.感谢他的体会,他有叫我不能做工!要想清楚才作决定,我知道了!虽然有很多东西要烦,但我还是躲不了,要自己去面对.说真的,我摇晃,就好像站在一个不平衡的跷跷板上.更感谢的是当我知道他有帮我survey一下东西时.
话题转到另一个频道...家敏说想和我通电,后来他有拨电和我聊..谢谢他的关心..好久都没通电话的朋友,突然的一个call说真的有点意外,也很欣慰..他叫我不要放弃,都已走到了第三学期,为什么不继续呢?我告诉他:我没有心,我怕..我是想继续,但真的好像不行...他要我不要那么悲观,是辛苦但也要坚持走下去..他也告诉我很多的原哲,例子..我是我,别人做到我却做不到,"毅力就是那么的少,少得可怜."*我不否认莹说的这句* 一切一切我都有听进去,但我一时无法告诉他我的决定,因为我真得很迷乱..所以我想说成绩揭晓那一天,可能我就知道了...希望我做怎样的决定都好,可能你会对我失望,但还是希望你会支持我..
有一点让我奇怪的是,
当我和身边的人面对着谈到自己的问题时，我没什么能哭出来。可是，每一通电话聊时，泪光就会在眼睛里打转着。为什么?这是感触吗？maybe.
泪流了,就要擦干,伤心了,就要释怀.


p/s:纵使我处处隐藏着自己,原来身边的人还是关心我的.我会试着努力摆脱..

晚安

Addicted:)

Pussycat Dolls-I HATE THIS PART

I give 5 stars*****
nice song!!!~AWESOME~yeah!

COME and SING together^^

...I can't take it any longer,thought that we were stronger
,all we do is linger,slipping through my fingers
I don't wanna try now,all that's left's goodbye to,find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here...

Photo taken on 17 February 2009

don't panic!from left to right,Ugly V.S Pretty
The VINCCI
Smiles:)


Cute yer~

shut up!the peoples behind of us :S
messy hair..
U're so thin.and U're so fat.


she looks naturally:)

What I've bought..................

• I bought a 2G memory card at only RM18, a card reader worth RM10 after discount,2 of handphone cover only RM10*one is jolene's* and a mobile case woth Rm12.5o at sungei wang !omg~~~I cann't believe of it")
• That why I asked the stuff:"sure bo?why so cheap?"he said:"ya.it' cheap because got promotion now,buy la..."haha..
• I still hesitated after bought all items above,a bit worrying because "not expensive things is low in quality??"~haha~and the boy told me that got 1 month warranty of some product.However,just let it..see how long time the things I use for...^^
• In the watson,I bought GERVENNE facial foam and toner which are recommended by the sales girl.Before of this,I want to try the products of Avene.But then,she asked to try GERVENNE and the prices not expensive also,total cost of both below RM20..anyone can afford on it.So,I try^^(hmm..not bad after I try just now:))
• Do you have try to wears waist trimmer before?I think almost no,right?because it is not necessary for urs..but for me,it brings some essential by wearing this.yeah~I bought one again :)If you want to try,must be patient because it'll very itchy after remove off from ur waist..haha:)
  

Check it out!!!Just Dance by Lady Gaga

RedOne, Konvict
GaGa, oh-oh, eh

I've had a little bit too much, much
All of the people start to rush, start to rush by
A dizzy twisted dance, can't find my drink, oh man
Where are my keys? I lost my phone, phone

What's going on on the floor?
I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore
Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?
I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance

Wish I could shut my playboy mouth, oh oh oh-oh
How'd I turn my shirt inside out? Inside outright
Control your poison babe, roses have thorns they say
And we're all getting hosed tonight, oh oh oh-oh

What's going on on the floor?
I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore
Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?
I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just

Woo! Let's go!

Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic
Got my blueprint, it's symphonic
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic
Got my blueprint electronic

Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic
Got my blueprint, it's symphonic
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic
Got my blueprint electronic

Go! Use your muscle, carve it out, work it, hustle
I got it, just stay close enough to get it
Don't slow! Drive it, clean it, Lysol, bleed it
Spend the last dough
(I got it)
In your pocko
(I got it)

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance


p/s:she is amazing !:)

VALENTINE

世上每对情侣代表着钥匙和锁，
谁也不能没有谁，
当找到属于自己的钥匙时，
要好好珍惜直到永远，
只因他是唯一能开启你内心之锁的人。
情人节快乐！

valentine..HAPPY VALENTINE to EVERYONE^^..
Yesterday felt bad eh..because a lonely valentine day~~where is Mr.Right?~~
buT have to accept..SINGLE life..yesterday i was nothings to do,felt boring..just can kept dreaming and muzzy there.such a PITY!:(haiz..
next year may make differences to me,am I?hopes so much...:)

anyway...
I wish all be happy..
^-^

I listened for the license teory too yeterday!damn fxxxx!stay for almost 7 hours at Hulu Langat there..Sleepy~~~

Breathless

I hate myself.
I hate my weakness.
I hate my personality.
I hate my way.
I hate my decision.
I hate to make decison.
I hate to be innocent.
SO WHAT?!I have to accept,I have to faces it!

I just need your support.But I am not being support.
Be honestly,I really lost in direction..Recently,I thinking to withdraw after get my semester 2 'result.In my mind,it felt so wrong,it felt so right..I just keep confuse,worry,afraid..what should I do?I really don't know:( please...don't ask me..don't bother me...I felt breathless~压力一定有外在的来源，但让我真正痛苦的，却是藏在内心的加压器。
And then...

I was moody of myself..my friends..and others..I knew almost all disagree about my thought my decision..Now,if you ask me whether make decision for myself.I can tell that YES,I DID.I just felt shame to tell all of you..because i have not ready to tell so,I don't wish to REGRET of myself again:(...Last week.I chat with ky through msn..At here,I take the opportunity to thanks him..my friend..really thanks!!!I tell a lots about me to him,he listens to me and I learned a lots from what he taught me.Thanks for his understanding too even he is not support me:)

Everytime,every moment I feel comfortable after I share my inner feeling with someone.Thanks for support me, no matter how am I to be.I must tough ,I must not to be negatively.Move on~~~~

From this moment,LIfe begins.

The road to success is not straight,there is a curve called failure.A loop called confusion.Speed bumps called bad friends.Red lights called enemies.Caution lights called family.You will have flat tyre called job,but you have a spare wheel called determination.An engine called perseverance.Insurance called faith.A driver called God.You will make it to a place called 'SUCCESS'.

你找到了吗？

一个普通朋友从未看过你哭泣，
真心朋友有双肩让你泪水显尽。
普通朋友讨厌你在他睡后打电话来，
真心朋友会问你为什么现在才打电话来，
普通朋友找你讨论你的烦恼。
真心朋友找你解决你的困扰。
普通朋友在吵架后认为友谊已结束，
真心朋友明白，当你们还没吵架就不叫真正友谊。
普通朋友期望你永远在他身边陪伴，
真心朋友期望能永远陪在你身边 。

有没察觉你的身边出现了如此真心的朋友呢？你找到了吗？
遇到了的那一个要好好的去珍惜。
:)

我本人喜欢这段有意义的词句...


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and here I wishing the birthday girl(03022009)-chengmei a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!^^
I wish all her dreams come true ya..all the best!:)


birthday girl ~in the leftside.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2009

GONG XI FA CAI I have no time to blogging since the 1st of new year.Family and I spent time with my aunt &her family and mummy cooked for us,of course I helped mum too:) The 2nd day still the same with 1st day.We cann't escape from the delisious food cooked by mummy,all of us keep keep eating~haiz~that 'what I worry,how easy am I gain weighted,no doubt for this time too.:( But my relatives said:nevermind la,lostweight after CNY la." how sad when I listens about it.haha...Be honestly.I already fat during CNY.I not to avoid eat this eat that,maybe is my mood problem I think:/but now need back to the time I passing by before to reduce weight,stard from zero.I know it hard but I have no choice. I break my promises many times,I hopes I believe I can before 21 years old.
End this topic..The next three days I went to Ipoh visited relatives, Johor and Port Dickson with family and also aunt'familys.An Innova car fixed in 9 peoples,that great!We talked,we laughed together on the way to destinations~Johor is the boring place to visited,because there have no 'huge' shopping heaven even the historical places also.haha..What can doing there?that is gamble at home~*gamble is the TRADITIONAL*right?~but unlucky,I lost money on it.:(BAD LUCK!! Unlike to Johor,I likes Port Dickson.In my memories,I remember that P.D not very clean in conditions but this time I went to there was totally changed.Why I say so?The beach is clean,the sea water is very clear .We step forward and we can see how deep of it,can see the sand in water too.That'wonderful!!I enjoyed")I have no drive motorboat because expensive!RM120 just for half an hours.But...my father,ancle,brother played it,this is what I dislike!!haha:) ..And I ate oyster!first time I try it,tastes not bad:)Thanks for uncle..
Overall of this CNY,I went to outstations,hang up with friends,celebrate with relatives and so on..The most important is HAPPY. happy to collect angpau!:P

I'm here to wish everyone--------------------------------
May this New Year bring many opportunities your way,to explore every joy of life and your resolutions for the days ahead stay firm,turning all your dreams into reality. And having a happy prosperous chinese new year!!^-^

Buddy..

messy~
FOUR of us
I like this:)
acting cute:P
FrieNDShip.
aGain..
Blur bLUR.>>
Happiness.
sAY yEAh!!^^

Joey vs Carlmen
Joey vs Mikkie
Kinda shoes:)
she said:heavy lahx~
She said:Don't want took photo lah~
Hopes the goal but failed again!:(
She felt 'pai seh' haha^^
UGly!but i just cnn't stop laughing yer!!
年年如意
吉祥如意
萬事如意
事事如意
新年快樂

gathering with them:) 31/01/2009

Today such a nice day.Early in the morning,I awake and get myself ready for a day went out with my dear friends-joey,carlmen and mikkie.Around 11am, we reached times square-NEWAY.The place I always going to.I like to sing,I like to scream out all my happiness and sadness.Of course,I am the one 'rampas' mic with them:)I had salad buffet as my breaksfast before I was getting crazy until 1pm^^After that,I had my own sing time.haha~In the same time,Joey,Carlmen and Mikkie keep took photo there:)but Mikkie looks likes muzzy there.The one of the staff there no manner eh!she keep the hating emotion when we asked for mic.stupid of her!:( I don't wish to see her next time!haha..Argh~still left 10minutes more,they asked us to leave and at that moment,I felt dissatisfy.Wow..there lots of peoples..there crowded in entrance when we out from sing room.

Our next turns is bowling..
aiyoyo...I felt embarrased at there because I don't know how to play:(I just play for fun.We wearing funny and kinda shoes when play bowling,I keep laughing and took photo on it.The unforgettable moment was the other peoples look at us.YOU know why?We really acting funny during the bowling time even mine also cannot control myself to stop laugh.haha..and Joey drops the bowling ball three times because she was tired to holded it.:)try your best next time ya!!!..WOW..the first round I win!happy eh~~second rounds turn to Carlmen.*But the points we achieve not very high.haha*

After that,we went to restaurant 'fun hei di' during lunch time.We felt hungry and cann't wait of the food serving~haha..We chatting,joking there..Time pass so fast,we went for shop a while.Actually I have lots of things want to buy,but I get control by Carlmen and Mikkie.:(They asked me to save money pula.disappointed eh!but I knew it good for me,so listens to them for ONCe time.haha..:)

We also took photo at the times square main entrance.There' nice in decorate!^^We went back at 6 something..enjoying today:)thanks...

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