肥妹子

胸口闷闷的
很想吐
刚才不知怎么的
突然喘不过气来
两个字：辛苦
吃了四颗酸梅子
舒服了一点
那一刻
我害怕


昨晚
敏载着她妹，怡和我
去了夜市集一趟
不知道为什么
第一次觉得夜市集不好逛
由前端走到后端
没有像以前的那种热度
来来往往的人也变少了
我们只是
边走边聊
走到冰泡档口
坐了下来
我-
一碗芋头味
一碗哈密瓜味
冷冰冰的感觉
超爽
是我的最爱
敏和她妹-
两碗也是一样的口味
怡-
原本要给我们试下芒果味的
却不小心倒翻了一碗
有点气～
没关系再order
我们还有
热腾腾的chay kuew teoy
就这样
谈下笑下
时间就这样过去了
敏过的好好
怡和我一样的心情
我们
加油！

昨天有三个人看到我时
对我说个不是的
我不是敏感而是真真实实的感受
只有自己身在其中才会明了
那时候我并没有告诉他们
因为他们不在
我只有莫名其妙的感觉
我是怪物吗?
我是肥胖哪又能怎样？
我是肉体的，有感觉性的
不需要这样对待一个肥妹子吧？
我心是痛的
朋友一向都对我说不要太在意自己的身型
但从这件事就是最好的证明我在意的原因
从小到大
我都胖嘟嘟
我也不想要
恨到不行
试过了
成功了
却又放弃了
过程
对我来说真的很难
对我 不是一般的容易

空空的
漂浮的
要绝食吗
现在
我想尝试
可能我能
为了自己
我能


回到今天
星期六的夜晚
jolene来我家
谢谢她
虽然
没有一起上课
没有一起放课
没有一起颠
但是
我们都有保持联络
我听她诉
她听我诉
比较会忘记闷
当我说到某某东西
眼珠里的
易破碎的泪珠
会不知觉的滚动
但我依然能哽着
收拾它

当我们面对着各方面的
环境，事情，人物，感情，心态藏着某种观点
自然的就会养成一种习惯
比如
常听别人说“习惯就好”
我觉得
没有100分
也有50分的领悟

你哭吧！

忘记了是几点钟
jolene的妈妈去carrefour
问我要不要一起去逛
二话不说
就和他们一起去了=)
她哥哥也有去
她很瘦
结果他比她更瘦
每一次看到他们
我满满的羡慕感
羡慕他们的好

距离不到半个小时
就到十点钟
抵达到家了
在客厅坐了一会儿
和爸哈啦几句
和家人说几句
和怡信息
弟把电脑让给了我
就继续聊
依旧地
访问一样的网站
逗留在一样的空间
听着随机播送的歌曲

就这样
肥妹子结束了这一天

You're not alone.

*but kei is alone*

nothing gonna change

Thankyou because you listens to me,my friends.my family..

Oh GODNESS!He looks pity today!
After Jeff told me something,more pity of him.arghhh!
Dont show infront of me because too pathetic on you.
FORGET IT!!chyi.
"Dont think back once you gave the letter".

Bad day again.I lost RM20 because of one stupid guy.He looks fierce.I not dare to said no to him when he ask me to buy the toothpaste.the worse was he kept ask me buy four toothpaste from him,RM20 per toothpaste.I kept to told that I have no money,but at the end I still have no choice since I in such condition.haiz..even is twenty dollar,but I sad too!it not worth at all.=(stupid.

Complicated

"So complicated my mood before and after sent resignation letter. I think this is the best way even it ' cruel to boss.I admit that I really cn't stay at there in long terms."I straight on my pc..then I share this at fb.quite bad today!no more worry after gave my resignation letter,but pathetic at once thinking about his situation afterwards.haiz=(This is what so called-selfish.Am I?

Almost four month I work there.What I thinks is stress more than happy I experienced at there,don't know why.Except the time with aunt,driver and salesman there,I bored at all.I can't work alone during working time.At least I have one colleague to talk to.Perhaps others will think that"work is work,got to accompany by someone?".sorry,I different,not such that independent human being.lol~~He said add on extra three hundred to me.I answerd him"No.I don't want."
I told myself"I want to leave since I caught the bads." I knew it very cruel happened today.but I must stand at myside.

Haiz.let time goes by..
I still young.I should not just to be stop.I have more and more chances..challenging..choices..in my life.It just depends on what I want to be.

Still have one month to go on.I will responsible with my position now,settle the things I not completed yet.I also give help as I know about that.I will lend hand to them as I can to those staff he hired soon.Hopes he get new employes in short noticed.That'what I able to do.

Rush

This few days.
How to describe?one word to tell "rush" I bored with my work company right now=)because of the mad boss!!!it' time to set me free.haha..
After finished work this noon,Aunt Irene and I went to interview at another company.Hmm..After reached there,I only realized the boss just ask aunt go for interview only.=)Too kindly..I means aunt^^.because she ask me go there together yer..quite embarresed because I not ask to interview..
But luckily the boss said wanna to hide person=) He said want to hide both of us.hehe..We are free!!!About the salary..don't know eh?!?... The boss called alan.he such a good boss!nice to listens to him.the way he talk with people is damn better than my boss now.at least,he know to respect and understand "life" theory.It such a big differences among both of the boss.shocked!!
On the other hands,isn't good for me to continue to further another course now?But I have no point.
Around 4pm,we only back from there.After I back home to took cloth,I straightly go to jolene'house.can chit-chat xia with her=)her family all nice and friendly person actually.funny too^-*
Her grandpa admitted to hospital.I follow them to visit "gonggong"too.They told that he is better than yesterday,he recognise me eh.Hope he get well faster!=)
Afterwards,we took supper at steven T garden.I wear my contact lens whole day.my eyes damn in suffering.tired too. yor..ate too many today!too full until wanna to vomit!!!only regret after ate.hate leh.no choice.wuwu...haha!!!!!!haha!!!! ZOMBIE~~~

baba...mama...brother...aunties..go to penang for two days.hope they enjoys much!
my house full of silence without them.aha...
but my room quite bising because of aru and sun..they playing crazy you know?!haha..sot sot de..
let them to crazy and mad xia bahh!I cant join them because they too crazy lah..dance and acting there..lol-)

Not sleepy now.online secukup-cukupnya without disturb by brother.enjoy!
Sleep until secukup-cukupnya tomorrow.Don't want to wake me up early tomorrow,kay?..=)

270609

• Last saturday,I went to K box again~excited and relaxing much:)
• Ricol,one of my dear friend.She came and fetch me about 10pm after she finished her dinner.Long time I never met her,my friend.happy to with her for two day =)
  
• I saw her parents since "n" years ago..her daddy never changed,still the young look!and her mummy looks charm than I met her half year ago.And ricol still remain sexy and friendly+)ahaha..after she told me somethings about her,I too shocked and felt that she is a tough girl actually.Must be strong,support you!
  
• First time I went to Neway during midnight,quite comfortable.That day,I only realize that many people go for sing at midnight actually..~night cat it called~
• I worse in sang on that day,I was too shocked and stress you know?..hehe..because ricol good in singing,her voice gorgerous!!!I envy lahx=)I can't imaging she can sing "my heart will go on"as well..Now,I knew that why my primary schoolmates called her as the queen of sing.haha..
• It' better for me to became audience to listen to her sang show.hehe...nice to sang with her.not to getting boring ya~
• Almost four hours we spent our time to "NEWAY"..honestly, I tired since rush the whole day.But don't know why,I never think wanna to sleep?!maybe my bedtime was over..^^
• I stay at her house after back from entertainment.her house..quite besar..sure I like it if that is my house:)but the most I like is her room and toilet..simple and nice!the main is comfortable.
• I regret not camwhore that day.must be next time=)
• I love her doggie in her house..chances-the cutie!*few years I not met chances,so miss..*..miko-the girly!..ruru-the fierce,I not dare to close with it!
• Both of us slept only slept at almost 6am..I can't remember how I fell asleep,she told me"we chat until slept yesterday"..so crazy,girls.
• I had a good day.(^-^)*mummy and dad not to worry about me.i'm in safety"
  

turns to next..
my face skin not fair recently.sad=.=
my panda eyes getting serius day by one day=.=
my hair not smoothly too=.=I try DOVE today.should it better?
my emo visited me sometimes=.=
want stop to eat but can't because of fizzy=.=

how ?how?how?

咖啡时段

今晚
说的话特别多
心情好好

今天
也是我好朋友的生日
七点半
在咖啡馆
我们聚在一起
可能蛮久没见面
一见面就
哈啦
八卦
什么话题都融入
不用防备
更不会有压抑感
听听彼此的最近
什么都能分享

香酒雪糕
薄荷饮料
都是想念的味道
我忍不住那诱惑
哈哈

简单的一餐
简单的庆祝
用心的礼物
希望你喜欢
少了蛋糕
依然
特别而简单
开心就好

翠莹
生日快乐
快快乐乐 *must take photo next time ya*
.FRIENDSHIP FOREVER....=)



回家时
发生小车祸
蛮着急下
幸好不是很严重
和对方商量解决就好
最重要的是
我们没事

别担心
没事的

我收到一个小包包
海滩风系类的
蛮精致
我用的话 有点搞笑但也蛮得意下喔
...谢谢...

巴厘岛
等我哟
我要海豚

明晚去唱k咯
是时候关上电脑 去休息@.@